Each new day is a gift.
Day by day, I am getting older...
growing older can be great...
getting older means getting wiser..more mature..more experiences..
It ought to be lovely to be old...
On the inside, I'm the same old me,
Just the outside's changed a bit...hehe..
one by one...my friends are getting married...with their loved ones..
I wonder how it feels like..
when a man proposed you to be the wife...
cherish his life..
having someone you really wish to live with..for the rest of your life...
how do I feel?
I'm not jealous at all but I'm glad my friends do have a man/women standing beside them..
supporting their life..
neither in pain nor success...
Gave them comfort when no one else could
Listen when no one else did
at this age,
yes, I know I am still young..
but if I would compare to those surround me,
I can't believe that I'm still single...
hehe~
but why should I bother?
hmm~
have you ever been in a circle where people at you age or even younger
all are getting married and have kids?
I do..
that's why I am so worried..
yet disappointed with myself for not having a spouse
hehe~
when people started to ask me,
"hey, why are you still not married?"
deep in my heart I replied, "I am trying hard enough, but still, could find no one..."
with me smiling (fake one! haha)..
i find the question so annoying...
I'm not mad but I'm a bit touched...
plus, they often added this statement, "RUGI TAU TAK KAHWIN LAGI..."
:'(
hey ladies with big mouth!!
my heart could break...it's just as fragile as crystals...
just as yours did!
(please put yourself in my situation, how would you feel?)
just like always,
I pulled myself away from the crowd when they started talking about their hubby, sharing experiences being a mum, having a baby...
they seemed to enjoy the conversation though I'm not..
only because I don't have one!
sometimes, I need to ask questions related to those stated above, when I need to converse..
and of course, I hate this!
but, that's only choice I have (may I ask, do I have any??)-besides the boring plain one about working stuffs...
like others did,
I do love hearing my phone beeps..
haha :))
someone says I LOVE YOU every often..
care for all things happened to you
share jokes and sulking to each other..
yes..
I am looking forward to build a family besides my career~
when I was all alone..
(not crying, but just wondering)
I always think~
for the reasons why am I still single.
why men just slipped away from me?
is it because; I'm not pretty enough?
I'm not good looking?
I don't dress like guys always dream of?
I'm not caring?
just like other girls who seems to be lovely, soft, and warm..
...or maybe I am not good enough~
If someone could tell me how shall I be...I should thanked him/her a bunch...
(a McValue meal will do, I guess..hehe)
same as guys do..
I like a man who has a tough build, (like a rugby player..hehe)
who don't smoke..
have manner on the dinner table..
love songs I loved
odorless except perfumes..
yet good looking..
and own a style...
with great career and assets..
but I know,
I am just an ordinary person,
like everybody did..
(not to be choosy, but i do care for details..)
but know, I've learnt..
don't care about all above matters..
all the physical thingy..
i've put 'em aside.. (arrghh..really hard for me to do this..hehe)
for a hope that one day,
a guy will come and bring sunshine to my life..
sharing laugh and tears...
thoughts and ideas...
make me happier than ever..
who will make my life complete.
the hardest thing I've ever done is keep believing..that there's someone in this crazy world for me...
I am tired thinking and waiting...
tired of being accused to date other girl's bf
to seduce other wife's hubby..
while I'm not..
please stop that :'(
but
It ain't impossible
for an endless love to come..
to love me for who I am..
for where I came from..
for what I've done before..
Insyaallah
I'd promise, I will Love YOU with all my heart till death do us apart~
cherish the LOVE WE HAD
we should cherish the LIFE WE LIVE
(p/s: I am not desperate, I am trying to find one..)
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If you Can't Accept me at my Worst, you Don't Deserve me at my Best! |
*Currently listening to Elton John - Can You Feel the love Tonight
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