It has been a year since I worked here in Kuantan~

It has been a year I worked here, in HTAA, Kuantan.
I've learned a lot, theoretically and practically of course!
But so sad, I still not confirmed yet (means, never attended induction course and BTN organized by JPA)
Alhamdulillah, that slowly the Matron let me do piece by piece the U41 core task. Though not all, but slowly I guess, the day will come. Inshaallah.
Love grows more day by day in Kuantan :)


*Currently listening to Lauren Wood - Fallen

Busy lately~

I was selected by the Matron to be the committee of JKNP's National Indicator Approach (NIA) and the HTAA IPTS coordinator for KIST and Windfield nursing college.
My first challenge began on the 11 January ago when I have to draft duty rosters for both colleges on their posting. There were 19 rosters I managed to complete the task from 5pm-4am in the morning. It was very late and I started to have a headache. But unfortunately I didn't have the colored printer. Should I or Should not I bought one to ease my burdensome of printing outside and have to pay RM0.40 per sheet?
The next morning, I met the Matron and get her countersign all the rosters and pass them to the CIs. At the office, the Matron gave me support and suggestions on how to make people realize my presence. Oh, I was so touched. Later I will show off. Later~


*Currently listening to Journey - Don't Stop Believin'

Cheap Detoxification and the Dokoh~

I have read a lot of information on the net, books, and magazines regarding nutrition for acne treatment. As usual - no oily foods,a lot of veges and fruits and a lot of plain water... One of them suggested a detoxification program, as to cleanse the bowel and removes toxins from the body which I think it's worth a try. The main ingredients is to drink fruit juices with the pulp. Oh, I really not into fruits and juices because I find them too sweet. On of my friend introduce me Tropicana Twister juice. I've tried all three flavors - orange, apple, and blackcurrant. I preferred orange as it not as sweet as the other two. I rushed to Giant Hypermarket and bought 6 bottles of the juice. Sound greedy right? But seriously I don't have time to spend on everyday shopping for this juices.

My Tropicana Twister army!

After that, I walked to every bazaar in the market itself to look around things I might love to buy. Then I found a Dokoh, which I wanted for so long, and surprisingly, it was super cheap! I bought it for RM 50 only. Hehe.. Before this I have surveyed for the price, it was around RM 80- RM 300. Really worth buying. I am thinking of buying the gold plated one. Hehe.

A dokoh is a Malay traditional pendant necklace usually in a set of two to three pendants, or more, and worn by The Sultan/Sultanah in any traditional ceremony, as the accessories. Can be worn on Kebaya or Kurung Songket.

My Dokoh

P/s: I really hate my roomate - she acts like shit from the pigs. Haha :))))))


*Currently listening to Ning Baizura - Awan Yang Terpilu

It's raining the whole day~

This is my first year live in Kuantan, a part of East Coast Malaysia that will experience monsoon from October to January. Unlike any parts of Kelantan and Terengganu, Kuantan was rarely flooded in this months. (but long time ago, there were many incidences because of poor drainage system, I guess...).
Almost everyday, it's raining outside 24/7, only few times I could barely see the sun glows, and the temperature was quite cold. I slept with double blanket and suffered a lot during shower time in the morning.  Not like KL where the rain drops heavily accompanied by thunderstorm.
I always get moody with my surroundings till my pimples popped out non-stop. It's ugly! and it make me depressed.
I still could not find the right entertainment for myself. My workload gains. Feel not so motivated. I need support please...
This afternoon, I attended a Mortality Review, and most of the shortfalls were from nurses. Oh, why? And hard to admit, that I'm one of them. Duhh~ My fellow lecturers would kill me if they know about this. But, THAT IS NOT ACTUALLY MY FAULT. I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO IN-CHARGED OF THE PATIENT. BECAUSE I AM NOT A "STAFF" NURSE. Luckily this case wasn't bring up to the court, if yes, I could have sued and my license barred :'(
My face now became worse. Everybody could barely see hundreds of whitehead on my skin. The pustules and papules popped out non stop. After a week using SebaMed, I noticed that the oily T-zone and chin fade away, my blackheads clearer, but some part of the skin became so dry. I have already omitted myself from eating any fast foods, snacks and junkies, fried foods, and drank a lot of clear fluid and orange juice.

The whitehead zits on my forehead and in between my eyebrows

Hundreds of whitehead, pustules, and papules. Noticed some flakes of dryness around lip area and chin

What am I supposed to do?

Ok, that's all for today. I have no mood.


*Currently listening to Christina Aguilera - I Turn to You

Dinner with joy!

My sister and I decided to have our dinner at New Horizon Restaurant, Kuantan. At first when we took a look at the variety of menus, owh, heaven! We chose the Dinner Set A for 2, consist of 2 white fragrant rice and 4 dishes of choice! We had Fried Garoupa with Mango Salad, Omelet with Prawn Meat, White Tom Yam, and Sizzling Squids. The fish was awesome! The mango salad really bring the taste. The omelet was so-so, but I like the idea of putting prawn meat in it. Tom Yam was fulled with seafood, mushrooms, and onions! (Luckily both of us love onion LOL). But it taste so sour, that many a times we can't barely tolerate. Hehe :P The sizzling squid was really good but taste weird, because they mixed altogether chillies, lemongrass, onions, and curry leaves. (can you imagine how it tastes like?). For drinks, My sister chose Soy milk, while I preferred Sea Coconut drink..hehe :P

Heavenly served on the table

Yeay!

The rate I given to:

• Service: 5
• Environment: 5
• Food: 4.5
• Price: 4

*Currently listening to Pit Bull - Hotel Room Service

Warning Signs~

re-post from my Fb note...

Each new day is a gift.
Day by day, I am getting older...
growing older can be great...
getting older means getting wiser..more mature..more experiences..
It ought to be lovely to be old...

On the inside, I'm the same old me,
Just the outside's changed a bit...hehe..

one by one...my friends are getting married...with their loved ones..
I wonder how it feels like..
when a man proposed you to be the wife...
cherish his life..
having someone you really wish to live with..for the rest of your life...
how do I feel?
I'm not jealous at all but I'm glad my friends do have a man/women standing beside them..
supporting their life..
neither in pain nor success...
Gave them comfort when no one else could
Listen when no one else did

at this age,
yes, I know I am still young..
but if I would compare to those surround me,
I can't believe that I'm still single...
hehe~
but why should I bother?
hmm~
have you ever been in a circle where people at you age or even younger
all are getting married and have kids?
I do..
that's why I am so worried..
yet disappointed with myself for not having a spouse
hehe~

when people started to ask me,
"hey, why are you still not married?"
deep in my heart I replied, "I am trying hard enough, but still, could find no one..."
with me smiling (fake one! haha)..
i find the question so annoying...
I'm not mad but I'm a bit touched...
plus, they often added this statement, "RUGI TAU TAK KAHWIN LAGI..."
:'(
hey ladies with big mouth!!
my heart could break...it's just as fragile as crystals...
just as yours did!
(please put yourself in my situation, how would you feel?)
just like always,
I pulled myself away from the crowd when they started talking about their hubby, sharing experiences being a mum, having a baby...
they seemed to enjoy the conversation though I'm not..
only because I don't have one!
sometimes, I need to ask questions related to those stated above, when I need to converse..
and of course, I hate this!
but, that's only choice I have (may I ask, do I have any??)-besides the boring plain one about working stuffs...

like others did,
I do love hearing my phone beeps..
haha :))
someone says I LOVE YOU every often..
care for all things happened to you
share jokes and sulking to each other..
yes..
I am looking forward to build a family besides my career~

when I was all alone..
(not crying, but just wondering)
I always think~
for the reasons why am I still single.
why men just slipped away from me?
is it because; I'm not pretty enough?
I'm not good looking?
I don't dress like guys always dream of?
I'm not caring?
just like other girls who seems to be lovely, soft, and warm..
...or maybe I am not good enough~
If someone could tell me how shall I be...I should thanked him/her a bunch...
(a McValue meal will do, I guess..hehe)

same as guys do..
I like a man who has a tough build, (like a rugby player..hehe)
who don't smoke..
have manner on the dinner table..
love songs I loved
odorless except perfumes..
yet good looking..
and own a style...
with great career and assets..
but I know,
I am just an ordinary person,
like everybody did..
(not to be choosy, but i do care for details..)
but know, I've learnt..
don't care about all above matters..
all the physical thingy..
i've put 'em aside.. (arrghh..really hard for me to do this..hehe)
for a hope that one day,
a guy will come and bring sunshine to my life..
sharing laugh and tears...
thoughts and ideas...
make me happier than ever..
who will make my life complete.

the hardest thing I've ever done is keep believing..that there's someone in this crazy world for me...

I am tired thinking and waiting...
tired of being accused to date other girl's bf
to seduce other wife's hubby..
while I'm not..
please stop that :'(

but

It ain't impossible
for an endless love to come..
to love me for who I am..
for where I came from..
for what I've done before..
Insyaallah
I'd promise, I will Love YOU with all my heart till death do us apart~

cherish the LOVE WE HAD
we should cherish the LIFE WE LIVE

(p/s: I am not desperate, I am trying to find one..)

If you Can't Accept me at my Worst, you Don't Deserve me at my Best!

*Currently listening to Elton John - Can You Feel the love Tonight

Happy New Year 2011~

Good bye 2010. All memories remain..This new year 2011 is on Saturday- the weekend! A lot of people get married on this memorable eventful date. I got 2 invitations, but unluckily I did not managed myself to attend any This is because I have my own planned for this short weekend.

1. To meet and spend time with the parents, especially mummy- the last time I went back KL, mummy went outstation.
2. To meet my dearest friend, Maci with her baby Mahdi. At first,one of our friend, Meen has already planned with me for visiting Maci and the baby. But unfortunately, she cancelled the plan and chose to stay in Teluk Intan. Oh, I really want to meet her BamBam Damia. 
3. To collect my tailored kebaya and send another pair for becoming wedding of a friend. Ikut tema lah konon nye.
4. To make the laundries easier :D
5. To return back stuffs I used less.

......

My New Year 2011 Resolution

• Savings $$$
• Change my attitude from very strict to flexible and softer
• Spent some time on vacation, anywhere :')
• Stop playing useless game, for instance MW
• Having a bf, maybe? Hehehe :P

Well guys, do you all have any new year resolution?

*Currently listening to Jamal Abdillah & Amelina - Seri Langkat